Have you ever felt that something has changed and not been able to pinpoint when it changed?
Or
Have you realized after-the-fact (whatever it was), that you felt different than you thought you would, and wondered when you changed how you felt in the first place?
those thoughts are kinda the same ... but what about...
What happens when you know something has changed and you don't have a clue what to do with it.
I feel lost. Unsure. Kinda relaxed, but kinda anxious. A bit sad, but only in the "whatever happens will happen" kinda way. Which I guess could be anxiety. Hmmmm....
I don't know what to do with my emotions.
That's the bottom line.
What I have done is: been a goofball at work, cooked dinner for the family, thought a lot, stared at nothing, stared at the candle, walked around, loved on my cat (real animal, you pervs LOL) , and listened to the silence. Oh yeah, and fixed a cocktail and then another. No, I haven't been smoking any pot tonight either, LOL. Although, that's not a bad idea....... nope, no need to make my brain analyze me anymore than it already is. I'm already starting to get a headache.
I like control,
and right now I don't feel like I have control of my emotions.
I don't know what to do with that.
And,
I don't know what to do with the loss of control.
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Somehow I know exactly what you mean...
i think all of us go through feelings like this. i know that it really sucks and there is not much anyone can say to get you "defunked". i hope this passes for you soon.
Unfortunatly our emotions often bypass our logic. Our head just is never quite sure of what our heart is doing. I hope you have a nice night and manage to figure out what has changed.
I know what has changed, but I don't know what to do with it
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