Okay, so they say it's your Birthday. Right?

That's all I could think of saying to represent what I am feeling. Not that I'm a Birthday freak or anything. I never want to celebrate, or call attention to the fact that it's my birthday. I've just never thought it was a big deal. Most of my friends think it's the greatest thing ever, but I just consider it to be another day. Anyway.......
I'm sitting here at my puter @ 2:30 am wondering why it didn't feel more special, and then in turn contemplating why I felt it should of been. I had a pretty atypical birthday day so to speak. I worked for an hour and a half, then I drove 30 minutes to the Mazda dealership to have them do the 30,000.00 mile service (because they said it should be done) & had them check the brakes for the trip. NO courtesy car (yes, I made an appt, but whatever) so I walked about a mile in the heat to the Super Walmart. Sat at Blimpe (because it was the only food for miles) and read the latest edition of Poeple. I remarked to myself about how I wasn't more upset or frustrated and that it felt good to just sit because you had too and relax because you had the time to do it. Hung out in Walmart, bought toothpaste, lip gloss and a cool shirt. Heading back down the road in the heat to find out that I needed brakes and it would be another 250.00. Nice, I said. How long before they go? By the next oil change. Double cool. Will make appt in the next week, wanted to puke on the floor because stomach so upset because of the money. No money, got to get back to Kansas okay... yuck. Stomach upset. Anyway, leave there and head to house to shower and get ready to go out. Post boobie shot on blog, YIPPY!, and then head out to the bar. Friends already feeling no pain. A new friend (met through other friend) is a great gal, but she's very loud and very vocal. So, the evening consisted of her entertaining everyone at the bar. Not because she does flips and tricks, but because she was so loud and has this Boston accent that screams "pay attention to me". Have you ever had a friend that you hang out with that is just exhausting to be around? That was her. Anyway, as I sat at the corner of the bar staring off into space, Thomas walked in. He's the boy that I just recently wrote about that had baggage and we had that wierd alchohol fused chemistry with? Anyway, he was nice and we just hung out for a bit. Then my horn dog of a friend said she'd take my place. She's crazy! She was serious. Thomas didn't know what to say, it was a hoot. Anyway, so I'm back at home feeling a little jinky reflecting on the day and thinking to myself, "hey wasn't to day supposed to be wonderful?" But, then I felt selfish because hey, I got shit done that needed to get done & my friends had a great time. And, quite possibly I made a match between two friends. LOL.

They say it's my birthday......... part two

Okay, let's try this again..............

OKAY, so it's just a boobie shot. But hey, that's pretty crazy for me!

All the other pictures I took, screamed

"HIT THE GYM - BOOB LIFT - LIPO"

Happy HNT Everyone

They say it's your Birthday!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hello everyone.

It's official, I'm 33 today.

Not sure how to feel about it.

So in honor of it being my birthday

here's me in my birthday suit.

(I've been trying to post a picture here for the last 30 minutes,

Blogger is sucking today. I'll try again later, fuck)

I hope everyone has a wonderful Thursday!

Pivoting

Happy HNT Everyone!!!!!!!!!

View 1

Upside down View

I'm sorry I haven't been around for a couple of days.

It's been total chaos since I've made my decision to move. Now I can't decide where to go. I've been hashing out soooo much shit in my mind that I've become brain dead. So, in honor of trying to get focused and relaxed I decided to post a picture of my tattoo.

It is the chinese character for the word Pivoting.

Stay grounded but always rotate.

Rangers 47 + 3 part 2

1. What time did you get up this morning?
opened eyes at 7am, feet on floor... 10ish
2. Diamonds or Pearls?
emeralds
3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema?
the last Matrix. don't laugh, I work too much cinema. Geezzz, such a sad sack
4. What are your favourite TV shows?
Rescue Me, Entorage, Carnival, Seinfield, Gray's Anatomy
5. What did you have for breakfast?
nanna
6. What is your middle name?
Michelle
7. What is your favourite cuisine?
Itlalian or Mexican any day! anything spicy.
8. What foods do you dislike?
Ummmm, Liver? can't think right now of any for sure
9. Your favourite Potato chip?
Doritos
10. What is your favourite CD at the moment?
I have Sirius radio, so I don't listen to CD's very often. But, in my CD player is Little Big Town
11. What kind of car do you drive?
2003 Mazda Dual Sport Pick-me-up Truck
12. Favourite sandwich?
Tuna Melt
13. What characteristics do you despise?
selfishness, people who think they are better than others (whatever that is called), ignorance
14. What are your favourite clothes?
casual classics with some funky stuff occasionally
15. If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation, where would you go?
French Polyonesian islands
16. What colour is your bathroom?
mulit-colored wall paper. venetian village scene over and over (yuck!)
17. Favourite brand of clothing?
Designer: Channel or Chole Real world: J Crew, Limited, NY Co, whatever I can afford LOL
18. Where would you want to retire to?
some island in the Carribean or possible the Grenedines
19. Where were you born?
Kansas
20. Favourite sport to watch?
Live - Hockey, Televised - Football
21. Who do you least expect to do this / send it back?
who knows
22. Person you expect to send it back first?
Hmmmmmmmm ? not sure either
23. Coke or Pepsi?
anything Diet
24. Are you a morning person or night owl?
Early morning
25. Any new and exciting news you'd like to share with everybody?
I'm moving back home.
26. What did you want to be when you were little?
I'm not sure. I think my mother said I wanted to be a Ballerina. But, I can't remember
27. What is your best childhood memory?
watching the stars with my Aunt Kim
28. What are the different jobs you have had or do in your life?
bartender, buffet girl, manager, photo tech, coordinator, cahsier, hooker, part time party girl, Madam LMAO just joking
29. Nicknames?

30. How many Piercings?
one in each ear
31. Eye Colour?
Hazel
32. Ever been to Africa?
not yet
33. Ever been toilet papering?
no
34. Been in a car accident?
yes, not fun!
35. Favourite day of the week?
Sunday
36. Favourite restaurant?
here: Aqua, the Jazz Corner, Fat Baby's / home: Playa Azual
37. Favourite flower?
Lilac because it reminds me of my Grandmother
38. Favourite fast food restaurant?
I don't really eat fast food, but I'd say Quiznos or Arby's
39. How many times did you fail your driver's test?
KS - none, Oregon - twice, SC - didn't have to take it, thank god.
40. Before this one, from whom did you get your last e-mail?
Travelocity
41. Which store would you choose to max out your credit card?
Saks 5th Avenue, they have everything
42. Who are you most curious about their responses to this questionnaire?
everyone
43. Last person you went to dinner with?
I can't remember
44. What are you listening to right now?
my mom yapping in my ear over the phone ;-)
45. What is your favourite colour?
white or black
46. How many tattoos do you have?
3
47. What's your favorite time of the day?
early early morning when the world smells new, very late at night when the world is resting from the day
48. What are some of your favorite smells?
skin, the rain at night, early morning air, garlic, basil, good cooking, the scent of a wood burning fire outside on a cold snowy night
49. What are some of your favorite sensations?
skin on skin contact, the high from exercising, massages, the sigh that you let out when you grab your cocktail and fall into the lazy boy and put your feet up at the end of a hard day
50. How many people are you sending this to?
everyone in blog land............


Okay, so I changed 48 & 49, I couldn't think of just one favorite thing. Also, forgive all the spelling errors, my spell check isn't working............

Dinner, bath & a little skin

Happy HNT!

This is how my Wednesday went....
I mailed, email & faxed resumes all afternoon long.

Nice, I know, while I was at work.

LOL
Then I went for a run.

I contemplated not doing it, but I'm soooo glad I did.

After soo much mental strain today, I really needed to let go.

I ran my ass off.

Well, I wish I would of, but hey it felt like it.

Eventually it will get off me.

4 miles, not bad.
Then I had a great dinner of nonsense with wine,

then a hot bath.




It felt great to not have to work tonight.

And,
I had a great run!!!!!!!!!!!

Well, I forced myself to run.

&

I got a shit load done for my move.

I feel so much better now. Big pat on the back!

But now I'm pissed because I lost my 50 some odd questionaire that I did while I was waiting to post this HNT. Fuck, that just irritates the shit out of me. But, I'm not going to get my panties in a bunch.

I will answer the questionaire as my post tomorrow or the next day.

No Worries

Good night and sweet dreams my little angels.

Rangers 47 questions + 3 more

I'm pissed, I just anwered all of these questions and it took about an hour to do, and I've lost it. i promise I will repost later, but fuck that pisses off. fucking shit. I'm off to bed. damn it


1. What time did you get up this morning?
2. Diamonds or Pearls?
3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema?
4. What are your favourite TV shows?
5. What did you have for breakfast?
6. What is your middle name?
7. What is your favourite cuisine?
8. What foods do you dislike?
9. Your favourite Potato chip?
10. What is your favourite CD at the moment?
11. What kind of car do you drive?
12. Favourite sandwich?
13. What characteristics do you despise?
14. What are your favourite clothes?
15. If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation, where would you go?
16. What colour is your bathroom?
17. Favourite brand of clothing?
18. Where would you want to retire to?
19. Where you born?
20. Favourite sport to watch?
21. Who do you least expect to do this / send it back?
22. Person you expect to send it back first?
23. Coke or Pepsi?
24. Are you a morning person or night owl?
25. Any new and exciting news you'd like to share with everybody?
26. What did you want to be when you were little?
27. What is your best childhood memory?
28. What are the different jobs you have had or do in your life?
29. Nicknames?
30. How many Piercing?
31. Eye Colour?
32. Ever been to Africa?
33. Ever been toilet papering?
34. Been in a car accident?
35. Favourite day of the week?
36. Favourite restaurant?
37. Favourite flower?
38. Favourite fast food restaurant?
39. How many times did you fail your driver's test?
40. Before this one, from whom did you get your last e-mail?
41. Which store would you choose to max out your credit card?
42. Who are you most curious about their responses to this questionnaire?
43. Last person you went to dinner with?
44. What are you listening to right now?
45. What is your favourite colour?
46. How many tattoos do you have?
47. What's your favorite time of the day?
48. What's your favorite smell?
49. What's your favorite sensation?
50. How many people are you sending this to?

UP date

hey, I posted a draft today with an update for the Fourth of July. But, apparently it post on the date that you originally saved it. So, to get the up date, you need to scroll back to July 6th. Sorry, didn't know that it worked that way

Tonight, I broke my heart again

Tonight I broke my heart because I devastated another's. This is why I don't get close.
Bear with me...
I met him on the fourth of July, which stories still have to be told of that evening. But, to give it in a simplified version, I picked up a guy and took him home (well, actually to his house) and had awesome sex with him and a lot of fun hanging out with him. Now, I'm pretty damn sure that is the only time, well except for one other time, that I've ever done that. And I am struggling with feeling like a whore because of it. But, let's face it... Sometimes we are just in the mood for whatever, ( no matter what it is, not necessarily sex) and do we deprive ourselves just for what others deem to be wrong with whatever it is we are feeling? Anyway,
the chemistry is there.
Seriously there.
He is absolutely not what I want. No way. Drives a motorcycle, not a Harley or a Chopper type, but something like a Honda. And, he drives an 80's Camero. Yes, you heard it right folks, an 80's era Camero. But, bless his heart, he has a lot of pride in it, and that's not a bad thing. He's from NY. 38, two kids with ex, lives with a roommate in a dorm type condo, has some issues with his finances that I haven't quite figured out. Not that financial stuff is an issue at this point, but something to do with a girl that wants to fuck him opening up a checking account for him. YES, I see all the RED flags. I'm not blind. But, there are serious sparks.
So much so, that I knew I needed to lay it all out on the line before it got any deeper.
After only screwing him Tuesday night, and talking to him on Wednesday and talking to him today (Friday), I felt a HUGE pull to let him know what was going on with me. Now, most would probably say that is a little soon to drop it off like it is, because technically we haven't even been on our first date much less talked about ourselves and what have you. But, once again, we just clicked. I had to be honest. So I told him how it was.
I told him that I'm very independent. If he's looking for a girlfriend, I'm not going to be it. I don't like lots of phone calls a day, or a huge amount of hangin out either. I'm a loner. Then I dropped the bomb, also I'm moving home within a month or two. He looked at me with those big blue eyes, devastated. What? I said I'm sorry. He was floored. I told him that we needed to decide what we were going to do because the feelings were so strong between us. He agreed. He said he knew the chemistry between us was so strong that he knew it was too much of a good thing. I agreed also. I said, we could either hang out and have fun over the next month or so, or go a head and drop it here. We run the risk of getting to close if we continue to hang out. He wants to try to convince me to stay and he will take care of me. (LOL, yes I know, we already had those types of conversations after meeting for the second time.) But, it's not going to happen. I'm going home. He's got too much baggage, and I know if I were to stay we wouldn't stay together forever. He's a bit of a thug I think. I think he might have a temper too. I can't decide. Do I sound like I'm trying to convince myself? I am. We have so much fun. I just melt when I'm around him. Yuck!!!! Anyway, once again it broke my heart to have to break his. It was like I sucked the life out of him when I told him. It was so sad. I'm not trying to sound conceited or anything, by saying he fell in love with me and such at all, but it was obvious that I didn't make his night.
So, now I don't know where we are. He said to call him tomorrow if I wanted to continue to see each other. He does, of course he wants to convince me to stay. Or should I just let it die and a little bit of us will die with it? Crap. Damn it Damn it Damn it

Channeling Madonna

I couldn't find a yearbook picture, but here's my freshman dance picture. Definitely was into Madonna, don't you think?

Now here's my recent picture. Thank god Weed convinced me to get my eyebrows done back in the day.

THANK YOU WEED!!!!!

Fourth of July shenanigans

I know this is a bit late, but I've had this in my "draft" file forever!










My friends and I hung out at this cute little bar for the fourth for about 5 hours. Needless to say, we were drunk bitches when we left. Then we went to another bar! Geez........ And for the rest of the night, you already read that post. But, as a follow up to that one, I actually hung out with him on Sunday, and man is he not my type. Great guy, nice and stuff, but we are soooo different that even if I were to stay here, we would never make it. Sexual tension combined with alcohol definitely was what the "chemistry" was that I so adamantly said we had. What a dork I am. Now, problem is to make him see it. We shall see.

That's what I get for drinking for 5+ hours. Sheeeeeeeettt.

Sweet Torture

My bra is killing me! It was 2:30am when I finally got home from work. I couldn't wait until I could get this thing off and head to bed. Then I started laughing about the post I did a while ago about the pain of wearing a bra. Then I looked at my ta-ta's, and said, damn this bra makes my boobies look good as I pranced around in front of the mirror. So, here you go Sal and everyone else. Here's a picture of pure torture.
Happy HNT!